Sunday, August 31, 2008
Told yah! God has plans! :)
★Saturday, August 30
To be honestly, honest, I was late for my first subject. Take note, it was our Midterms Examination. Reason? Last night, JP and I talked. :
At first it was fine. We were so busy at home so we started our conversation, around 11 57:54 pm to be exact.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:29:40 AM): Uy di mo ba talaga papansinin invitation ko?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:30:20 AM): Hello
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:12 AM): kasal?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:17 AM): kakasal kana?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:21 AM): wow GFY
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:31:35 AM): Uhm di Service po.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:31:40 AM): Revival night.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:37:35 AM): ...
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:37:40 AM): kaw nalng
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:38:09 AM): Bakit?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:38:18 AM): change topic
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:39:14 AM): Akala ko ok na.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:39:21 AM): Akala ko kahit isa lang papayag ka.SO ON SO FORTH.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:40:10 AM): diba sinabi ko na to sa txt?? i nid time to think kung sinu nga ako ngaun
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:10 AM): Tas di ka pupunta..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:18 AM): E isa lang
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:26 AM): Paglatapos nun.. DI na kita kukulitin..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:28 AM): Sayang e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:33 AM): Revival night.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:45 AM): Baka dun mo malalaman kung sino ka. BAKA MAREVIVE ka.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:49 AM): Pagbigyan mo na ako.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:41:02 AM): ...........
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:41:11 AM): gusto mo nanaman ata nang away e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:15 AM): Isang beses lang tapos.. kung walang epekto sayo.. edi yun.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:21 AM): Gusto ko lang pumunta ka.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:29 AM): Once and for all you BELONG there.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:42:01 AM): shut up
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:42:03 AM): .....
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:42:33 AM): Bakit mo ako inaaway?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:42:37 AM): Isang beses lang tapos.. kung walang epekto sayo.. edi yun.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:43:12 AM): tama na
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:43:16 AM): shut up diba?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:38 AM): Bakit ka ganiyan?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:43 AM): Akala ko ba..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:47 AM): Di mo na ako..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:48 AM):
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:55 AM): Sorry umasa ako. Mali pala.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:06 AM): ayaw kitang paiyakin
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:07 AM): pero please lang
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:10 AM): wag mo kong kulitin
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:12 AM): kilala mo ko e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:15 AM): Mahal..
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:15 AM): alam mo ugali ko
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:24 AM): ISA LANG. Tapos wala na. Promise...
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:30 AM): Maawa ka na..
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:45:54 AM): dont cry please?
12:54:55 am. I cannot already control what I feel, I called him. Even though I know it's already late. I didn't hang back. I know that's the only way so we can stop arguing. : We talked for almost 30 minutes. I was awfully disrespected in our conversation. I beseech him to stop uttering words that keep on hurting me, but his head was too hard. As well as his heart. :'( But then, God was so marvelous. I know we can never turn back everything what was used to be as wonderful and joyous as before, at least we still don't want to detach. I really want to make him come with me. I know God has plans and I really am sure of it! I know it's infallible. :( :(( :(( --This happened last night.
So in short, I was not able to take my Filipino Midterms exam. On the lighter note, yey! Haha, since we are not going to take our Midterms for English, I made use of it's time and headed straight to Prof. David's Political Science class. And she allowed me to take the exam! Wee. 70/80 It was checked at once. Then we proceeded to FEU Foodcourt to eat my lunch. Our barkada were already there. Yehes. Bonding with the guys uli. Himala 'di sila nag-
I got the chance to text and do a little talk with Lizzy, and shared her what actually happened or should I say what he truthfully said to me, last Wednesday. That was a big bad hit for me. : To her surprise, all she was able to say was, "Oh? Grabe! :" I waited for JP outside their compound but sadly, he never went out. I was expecting him, to be waiting for me, but it went the other way around. I actually waited for him for almost 1 hour and a half. It's already 3pm and I started to get really upset. So I sent him a text message saying that I need to go. Although, he did not really waited for me, [or he did. But its just not what I was thinking that subtle moment] I still walked my way to the kanto. Then it rained. As I was waiting for my bus ride, I noticed a boy running towards my direction. I was right, it was him. He kept asking me why I haven't told him that I was outside. And the only reason is, I don't want to bother him or oblige him to wait for me. I mean, if he really was expecting me to come, he would undoubtedly wait for me, right? As I was saying, it was raining. Misunderstandings and brawls once again took their places.. I was weeping. A lot. Tita Gie saw us and invited us to go inside but I was so much in pain that I even snubbed her. I know that was mean, good thing she understands and was totally aware of what was going on. So she didn't bothered forcing us to come in the house. We sat down a moment, then he started to ask questions like, Ano na? Ano na? And in the back of my mind was, are you kidding me? Don't I look pitiful much for you? I just want you to come with me! Don't you understand? It is FOR YOU! Not for me! NEVER for me! I kept breaking pencils, [literally] because of my disgust and uhm, hate? I was not disgusted of him, just to clear everything. I loathe what I was actually feeling. Very unappreciated. Unrecognized, misunderstood and every words that will absurdly mean the same thing. I really didn't say anything at all, knowing that, I can do nothing and only Him has the key to control JP's mind and heart. Tears kept falling down from my eyes, as I was silently praying. And then to my utmost surprise, he hugged me and said, "Sasama na po ako." Samahan mo pa ng ngiti. :) Wow. Praises were all around my slightly-not-conscious-mind and I tried to stop sobbing. Did he actually say that? I hugged him while thanking God for an overwhelming reason. -- my title said it all, after a long wait. I didn't lose Faith. I already saw this coming. That's why I didn't gave up. :D
So we finally came inside their house, he took a bath then we ate a little sort of lunch, and headed our way to Word of Hope. I admit, I missed this! I still was in a state of shock for what had happened, and I didn't stopped thanking God, He deserves all praise! We were slightly late, but we still had the chance to enjoy Brother James Huey's songs of praises. We've come to magnify, we've come to glorify, we've come to magnify and praise His Holy Name! All of his songs are excellent! It may be short, or the lyrics will be repeated a hundred times, still, it glorified God! Then it was time for Evangelist Mikel French to preach. Woah. How can I explain how astounded I am? Acts 2:17-18. THE PREACHING WAS ALL ABOUT his SITUATION! Being in the bottom of a pit, a deep pit that came to a point that you even thought of killing yourself because of so much depression and hopelessness. When I was totally relating every words form Mikel French, I just could not help it, I was flabbergasted. God was so wonderful that I believe, He really did PLANNED for this night, wherein JP would finally realize that there is really a need for change, in his life, attitudes, relationships with others, etc. Mikel French also did mention about how God uses someone to motivate us to draw closer to God. Hmm, I wonder, sino kaya ginamit ni Lord para kay JP? Hmm. Ahahaha. *innocent whistles* xD
`Your relationship determines your resources.
`No matter what it takes, God will always use someone to motivate you to draw near to Him. God uses people.
`When you reach out to God, He can do anything for you.
Even before the preaching was over, JP was crying already. Hindi pa tapos 'yung preaching ah! Mikel French always preach for a short period of time and uses the remaining time for persuading people to repent and come back to God. Mas mahaba 'yung intro niya for an altar call compared to his outline of teaching. And for a personal note, I like his style. In that way, many would realize that they really need to draw near to God. In just a moment, I'm gonna count of three, if you say Mikel, I'm not prepared for Heaven, I'm not right with God, I have attitudes that makes me feel I'm so far away from God, I did things that I feel I am not worthy of anything, I want you to stand up. I don't know who you are but someone in this room already thought of killing his self. In just a moment, when I count of three, I want you to take courage to stand up from where you are sitting, no matter who you are no matter where you came from if you believe you're not prepared for Heaven.. Stand up Jesus loves you and you should be right with Him. --This was his way to open an altar call. He emphasizes the need to go in front and talk to God and be right with Him. Mikel French would just explain and expound this thing for almost 20 minutes or more, then he will eventually count to three. The moment Mikel did the counting, JP immediately ran off to the front and cried out the loudest that he can. I also came not just to cry because of the negatives, but I went there to thank God on how He miraculously did this blessing for me, for JP. Answered prayers! Many people went crying for God again. And this time, mostly were Youth because Saturdays are Youth Alive day. After the Service, Arozcaldo was served fro the people. We went to TriNoma, usap usap. Kwento kwento. Went home. :)
P.S.
God was so awesome today, most of my closest friends from High School came. Nag-iinvite lang naman ako ng mga matagal ng 'di nakakapunta sa WoH. That's because almost all my friends made WoH their home church already. Kaya marami akong HS Friends na nakakasama lagi doon. Almost everyday pa. That's just one from the million benefits of being a student minister. :)
I invited some of them and first thought, "Malamang, College na, madami nang may pasok ng Saturday like me." But then, to my surprise, some of them came! Mostly were all the way from their Universities. It seemed a reunion! My bestest friend Louie from UP Baguio came. It was a miraculous co-incidence that Bes would go down from Baguio this particular weekend. Neil from UST, with matching uniform labas niya kasi, 5:30. Haha! Imagine one hour ride 'yun pero he still came! And the most exciting thing was I got to see four out of seven Paowderr Boys again! Oliver, Arman, Dave, and Jeffrey. Woo, how I missed them already? Out of words to explain. Hindi ko na iisa isahin kasi, sobrang dami talaga namin. I love God. MORE than ever! :D
I AM A MULTIPLIER, FULL OF JOY, BORN TO BIRTH CHANGE!
Lord, I awe you BIG TIME!
E-heads Reunion Concert. One time big time, one night only. :D
★Sunday, August 31
Corban Wheels. I was late, but my reason is valid. When I arrived, at the rehearsals area, I noticed some guys whom I think, looked very familiar. And then Kuya Mervin introduced me to them.
Kuya Mervin: Ayan si Jeah, isang break dancer din namin. From Corban.
Jeah: Hello! *smiles and offers my hand to everyone*
J: Kuya, parang kilala ko sila.
Kuya M: Ahahaha. Syempre!
The Guys: Kami 'yung mga youth sa Pasay. *laughs*
J: Ay? Ahahaha! Sorry. Kaya pala!
It was a disgrace for me. They were the dancers of YA Pasay that we've met before. =)) They were here because it's the Anniversary. So every members or active servers of each satellite churches of Word of Hope will attend the 5:30 Service.
Routines. Drills. Practice. We trained hard this day. Again, all those stunts and everything! It was tiring, but it was worth the sweat and body pains. Then we ended at exactly 4:00pm 'cause the service will start on the said time. Today was the "culminating" event for the 20th Anniversary or the last Sunday of August should I add. I had a copy of the program of the 20th Anniversary Grand Celebration. With the theme 20/20 Vision, "Fulfilling the God-given Vision" The Altar looks very fantastic. Credits to YPC or Young Professional Circle Ministry for decorating the Stage. Praise and Worship. Performances from Dance Ministry, Pamana Dancers' Amazing Grace interpretation.[Wooo! They're all incredible dancers!] Voice overs and Audio Visual Presentations about Evangelism, Power point presentations about feeding, medical mission, and sharing the Word of God or evangelism events of Word of Hope Church. Presentations from WoH Valenzuela and WoH Novaliches. Then an Audio-Visual Presentation about WoH History, accomplishments for the past 20 years, and visions to be fulfilled for the upcoming years. The video, though simple and I can undoubtedly do better that that, IT WAS VERY TOUCHING. There were lines that goes like this: "Noon, ganito ang eksena sa EDSA. *Shows pictures of EDSA Revolution, Rallies and Protests*, Pero ngayon, SA EDSA, IBA NA ANG EKSENA! *Same pictures of Rallies, but the banners and placard of the activists were changed into GOD IS GREAT! With GOD, Everything is Possible!, etc. * In short, it was edited, it seems funny but the message was clear. Then Pastor Dave spoke for a couple of minutes for the Offertory, narrating the Story of Word of Hope. Waa. Napaiyak ako, kahit nagpapatawa siya, it was really God's vision for him to build and start a church in Metro Manila. And now, it is obviously, Word of Hope! "The MAIN THING is to make the MAIN THING, the MAIN THING." Trully, with God nothing is impossible. Just believe. HCA Revolution played God of Wonders. Voice over about Discipleship. Presentations from WoH Cubao and WoH Meycauayan. Voice over about Worship in Spirit and in Truth. Presentations form WoH Malabon, WoH Marikina, Congress Chorale, and my favorite part ... Worship with JAMES HUEY! Then Mikel French spoke again. I AM A MULTIPLIER, FULL OF JOY, BORN TO BIRTH CHANGE! It was really an array of blessed presentations and great speakers and people who share the same faith. :)
This was the great crowd during the 2oth Grand Celebration of Word of Hope.
E-heads did great last night. I do admit that I thought the issue was a big hoax, all I can say is, get well soon Ely! Hope you can change for the better. You're a very influential public icon, and I do hope you could influence the mass by promoting good will. And if that night was really a hoax, I don't have the right to do anything about it. Let's just leave the E-heads especially the producers of the concert to God alone.
Get well soon greeting from my Co-Brewster, DJ Ramon. Thank you so much MonRock! :D
Kuya RA and Ramon B. with ElyTold you, God has plans! Hmm, well maybe because of what happened to me, you can now swallow what you've said before. I hope that you would renounce it. Even though you did not directly said it to me, I know it was I you're pertaining to. I did that because God told me to do so. I won't disobey my Lord, just to please you, neither the people around you. I felt bad 'cause you misunderstood me. And you made me look like a desperate girl for you and your friends. Nah! I AM DEFINITELY NOT DESPERATE, for your information. In fact, God is the only one who understands everything in the first place. I'm sorry but it's not my lost. I believe, you should've RENOUNCED IT even before I posted my feelings here. I'm not mad but you should know that judging others will not do you any good. And, I just want to ask, who are you to judge me? You're not God anyway! God bless you. =\
It's 9:59 PM and I'm still free to live for God
Forgiven and Free
Jeah || Jahaziel Ann
1991, 16th of October
A man trapped in a woman's body. Caffeine addict. Full time Student. Full time Minister.
FEUTamaraw Freshman. AB Mass Communication
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