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Sunday, August 31, 2008

Told yah! God has plans! :)

Saturday, August 30
To be honestly, honest, I was late for my first subject. Take note, it was our Midterms Examination. Reason? Last night, JP and I talked. :

At first it was fine. We were so busy at home so we started our conversation, around 11 57:54 pm to be exact.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:29:40 AM): Uy di mo ba talaga papansinin invitation ko?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:30:20 AM): Hello
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:12 AM): kasal?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:17 AM): kakasal kana?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:31:21 AM): wow GFY
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:31:35 AM): Uhm di Service po.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:31:40 AM): Revival night.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:37:35 AM): ...
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:37:40 AM): kaw nalng
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:38:09 AM): Bakit?
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:38:18 AM): change topic
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:39:14 AM): Akala ko ok na.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:39:21 AM): Akala ko kahit isa lang papayag ka.

SO ON SO FORTH.

Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:40:10 AM): diba sinabi ko na to sa txt?? i nid time to think kung sinu nga ako ngaun
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:10 AM): Tas di ka pupunta..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:18 AM): E isa lang
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:26 AM): Paglatapos nun.. DI na kita kukulitin..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:28 AM): Sayang e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:33 AM): Revival night.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:45 AM): Baka dun mo malalaman kung sino ka. BAKA MAREVIVE ka.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:40:49 AM): Pagbigyan mo na ako.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:41:02 AM): ...........
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:41:11 AM): gusto mo nanaman ata nang away e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:15 AM): Isang beses lang tapos.. kung walang epekto sayo.. edi yun.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:21 AM): Gusto ko lang pumunta ka.
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:41:29 AM): Once and for all you BELONG there.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:42:01 AM): shut up
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:42:03 AM): .....
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:42:33 AM): Bakit mo ako inaaway?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:42:37 AM): Isang beses lang tapos.. kung walang epekto sayo.. edi yun.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:43:12 AM): tama na
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:43:16 AM): shut up diba?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:38 AM): Bakit ka ganiyan?
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:43 AM): Akala ko ba..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:47 AM): Di mo na ako..
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:48 AM):
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:43:55 AM): Sorry umasa ako. Mali pala.
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:06 AM): ayaw kitang paiyakin
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:07 AM): pero please lang
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:10 AM): wag mo kong kulitin
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:12 AM): kilala mo ko e
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:15 AM): Mahal..
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:44:15 AM): alam mo ugali ko
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:24 AM): ISA LANG. Tapos wala na. Promise...
Jeah (8/30/2008 12:44:30 AM): Maawa ka na..
Jaypee™ (8/30/2008 12:45:54 AM): dont cry please?

12:54:55 am. I cannot already control what I feel, I called him. Even though I know it's already late. I didn't hang back. I know that's the only way so we can stop arguing. : We talked for almost 30 minutes. I was awfully disrespected in our conversation. I beseech him to stop uttering words that keep on hurting me, but his head was too hard. As well as his heart. :'( But then, God was so marvelous. I know we can never turn back everything what was used to be as wonderful and joyous as before, at least we still don't want to detach. I really want to make him come with me. I know God has plans and I really am sure of it! I know it's infallible. :( :(( :(( --This happened last night.

So in short, I was not able to take my Filipino Midterms exam. On the lighter note, yey! Haha, since we are not going to take our Midterms for English, I made use of it's time and headed straight to Prof. David's Political Science class. And she allowed me to take the exam! Wee. 70/80 It was checked at once. Then we proceeded to FEU Foodcourt to eat my lunch. Our barkada were already there. Yehes. Bonding with the guys uli. Himala 'di sila nag- DOTA or nag-aya man lang. :)) I do understand the need to review even a little so we can answer our exams. Hahahaha! Computer. The exam was quite complicated. After the time, I surmise, I got a low score, and indeed, I had a weak one. Dismissed.

I got the chance to text and do a little talk with Lizzy, and shared her what actually happened or should I say what he truthfully said to me, last Wednesday. That was a big bad hit for me. : To her surprise, all she was able to say was, "Oh? Grabe! :" I waited for JP outside their compound but sadly, he never went out. I was expecting him, to be waiting for me, but it went the other way around. I actually waited for him for almost 1 hour and a half. It's already 3pm and I started to get really upset. So I sent him a text message saying that I need to go. Although, he did not really waited for me, [or he did. But its just not what I was thinking that subtle moment] I still walked my way to the kanto. Then it rained. As I was waiting for my bus ride, I noticed a boy running towards my direction. I was right, it was him. He kept asking me why I haven't told him that I was outside. And the only reason is, I don't want to bother him or oblige him to wait for me. I mean, if he really was expecting me to come, he would undoubtedly wait for me, right? As I was saying, it was raining. Misunderstandings and brawls once again took their places.. I was weeping. A lot. Tita Gie saw us and invited us to go inside but I was so much in pain that I even snubbed her. I know that was mean, good thing she understands and was totally aware of what was going on. So she didn't bothered forcing us to come in the house. We sat down a moment, then he started to ask questions like, Ano na? Ano na? And in the back of my mind was, are you kidding me? Don't I look pitiful much for you? I just want you to come with me! Don't you understand? It is FOR YOU! Not for me! NEVER for me! I kept breaking pencils, [literally] because of my disgust and uhm, hate? I was not disgusted of him, just to clear everything. I loathe what I was actually feeling. Very unappreciated. Unrecognized, misunderstood and every words that will absurdly mean the same thing. I really didn't say anything at all, knowing that, I can do nothing and only Him has the key to control JP's mind and heart. Tears kept falling down from my eyes, as I was silently praying. And then to my utmost surprise, he hugged me and said, "Sasama na po ako." Samahan mo pa ng ngiti. :) Wow. Praises were all around my slightly-not-conscious-mind and I tried to stop sobbing. Did he actually say that? I hugged him while thanking God for an overwhelming reason. -- my title said it all, after a long wait. I didn't lose Faith. I already saw this coming. That's why I didn't gave up. :D

So we finally came inside their house, he took a bath then we ate a little sort of lunch, and headed our way to Word of Hope. I admit, I missed this! I still was in a state of shock for what had happened, and I didn't stopped thanking God, He deserves all praise! We were slightly late, but we still had the chance to enjoy Brother James Huey's songs of praises. We've come to magnify, we've come to glorify, we've come to magnify and praise His Holy Name! All of his songs are excellent! It may be short, or the lyrics will be repeated a hundred times, still, it glorified God! Then it was time for Evangelist Mikel French to preach. Woah. How can I explain how astounded I am? Acts 2:17-18. THE PREACHING WAS ALL ABOUT his SITUATION! Being in the bottom of a pit, a deep pit that came to a point that you even thought of killing yourself because of so much depression and hopelessness. When I was totally relating every words form Mikel French, I just could not help it, I was flabbergasted. God was so wonderful that I believe, He really did PLANNED for this night, wherein JP would finally realize that there is really a need for change, in his life, attitudes, relationships with others, etc. Mikel French also did mention about how God uses someone to motivate us to draw closer to God. Hmm, I wonder, sino kaya ginamit ni Lord para kay JP? Hmm. Ahahaha. *innocent whistles* xD

`Your relationship determines your resources.
`No matter what it takes, God will always use someone to motivate you to draw near to Him. God uses people.
`When you reach out to God, He can do anything for you.


Even before the preaching was over, JP was crying already. Hindi pa tapos 'yung preaching ah! Mikel French always preach for a short period of time and uses the remaining time for persuading people to repent and come back to God. Mas mahaba 'yung intro niya for an altar call compared to his outline of teaching. And for a personal note, I like his style. In that way, many would realize that they really need to draw near to God. In just a moment, I'm gonna count of three, if you say Mikel, I'm not prepared for Heaven, I'm not right with God, I have attitudes that makes me feel I'm so far away from God, I did things that I feel I am not worthy of anything, I want you to stand up. I don't know who you are but someone in this room already thought of killing his self. In just a moment, when I count of three, I want you to take courage to stand up from where you are sitting, no matter who you are no matter where you came from if you believe you're not prepared for Heaven.. Stand up Jesus loves you and you should be right with Him. --This was his way to open an altar call. He emphasizes the need to go in front and talk to God and be right with Him. Mikel French would just explain and expound this thing for almost 20 minutes or more, then he will eventually count to three. The moment Mikel did the counting, JP immediately ran off to the front and cried out the loudest that he can. I also came not just to cry because of the negatives, but I went there to thank God on how He miraculously did this blessing for me, for JP. Answered prayers! Many people went crying for God again. And this time, mostly were Youth because Saturdays are Youth Alive day. After the Service, Arozcaldo was served fro the people. We went to TriNoma, usap usap. Kwento kwento. Went home. :)

P.S.
God was so awesome today, most of my closest friends from High School came. Nag-iinvite lang naman ako ng mga matagal ng 'di nakakapunta sa WoH. That's because almost all my friends made WoH their home church already. Kaya marami akong HS Friends na nakakasama lagi doon. Almost everyday pa. That's just one from the million benefits of being a student minister. :)

I invited some of them and first thought, "Malamang, College na, madami nang may pasok ng Saturday like me." But then, to my surprise, some of them came! Mostly were all the way from their Universities. It seemed a reunion! My bestest friend Louie from UP Baguio came. It was a miraculous co-incidence that Bes would go down from Baguio this particular weekend. Neil from UST, with matching uniform labas niya kasi, 5:30. Haha! Imagine one hour ride 'yun pero he still came! And the most exciting thing was I got to see four out of seven Paowderr Boys again! Oliver, Arman, Dave, and Jeffrey. Woo, how I missed them already? Out of words to explain. Hindi ko na iisa isahin kasi, sobrang dami talaga namin. I love God. MORE than ever! :D

I AM A MULTIPLIER, FULL OF JOY, BORN TO BIRTH CHANGE!
Lord, I awe you BIG TIME!
E-heads Reunion Concert. One time big time, one night only. :D


Sunday, August 31
Corban Wheels. I was late, but my reason is valid. When I arrived, at the rehearsals area, I noticed some guys whom I think, looked very familiar. And then Kuya Mervin introduced me to them.

Kuya Mervin: Ayan si Jeah, isang break dancer din namin. From Corban.
Jeah: Hello! *smiles and offers my hand to everyone*
J: Kuya, parang kilala ko sila.
Kuya M: Ahahaha. Syempre!
The Guys: Kami 'yung mga youth sa Pasay. *laughs*
J: Ay? Ahahaha! Sorry. Kaya pala!

It was a disgrace for me. They were the dancers of YA Pasay that we've met before. =)) They were here because it's the Anniversary. So every members or active servers of each satellite churches of Word of Hope will attend the 5:30 Service.
Routines. Drills. Practice. We trained hard this day. Again, all those stunts and everything! It was tiring, but it was worth the sweat and body pains. Then we ended at exactly 4:00pm 'cause the service will start on the said time. Today was the "culminating" event for the 20th Anniversary or the last Sunday of August should I add. I had a copy of the program of the 20th Anniversary Grand Celebration. With the theme 20/20 Vision, "Fulfilling the God-given Vision" The Altar looks very fantastic. Credits to YPC or Young Professional Circle Ministry for decorating the Stage. Praise and Worship. Performances from Dance Ministry, Pamana Dancers' Amazing Grace interpretation.[Wooo! They're all incredible dancers!] Voice overs and Audio Visual Presentations about Evangelism, Power point presentations about feeding, medical mission, and sharing the Word of God or evangelism events of Word of Hope Church. Presentations from WoH Valenzuela and WoH Novaliches. Then an Audio-Visual Presentation about WoH History, accomplishments for the past 20 years, and visions to be fulfilled for the upcoming years. The video, though simple and I can undoubtedly do better that that, IT WAS VERY TOUCHING. There were lines that goes like this: "Noon, ganito ang eksena sa EDSA. *Shows pictures of EDSA Revolution, Rallies and Protests*, Pero ngayon, SA EDSA, IBA NA ANG EKSENA! *Same pictures of Rallies, but the banners and placard of the activists were changed into GOD IS GREAT! With GOD, Everything is Possible!, etc. * In short, it was edited, it seems funny but the message was clear. Then Pastor Dave spoke for a couple of minutes for the Offertory, narrating the Story of Word of Hope. Waa. Napaiyak ako, kahit nagpapatawa siya, it was really God's vision for him to build and start a church in Metro Manila. And now, it is obviously, Word of Hope! "The MAIN THING is to make the MAIN THING, the MAIN THING." Trully, with God nothing is impossible. Just believe. HCA Revolution played God of Wonders. Voice over about Discipleship. Presentations from WoH Cubao and WoH Meycauayan. Voice over about Worship in Spirit and in Truth. Presentations form WoH Malabon, WoH Marikina, Congress Chorale, and my favorite part ... Worship with JAMES HUEY! Then Mikel French spoke again. I AM A MULTIPLIER, FULL OF JOY, BORN TO BIRTH CHANGE! It was really an array of blessed presentations and great speakers and people who share the same faith. :)

This was the great crowd during the 2oth Grand Celebration of Word of Hope.


From my estimation, 6-7 thousand people. There was no room for the others to sit in. So the late comers were literally standing already at the back. Confetti and Balloons! :D After the Service, we went home and uh, I had an extreme headache. :'( And because of this, I whined a lot. I really had a hard time to get along with the pain, my Dad prayed for me though, so I fell asleep. Well it was not a good night sleep just to let you know. Haha! Hope you were blessed! :)

E-heads did great last night. I do admit that I thought the issue was a big hoax, all I can say is, get well soon Ely! Hope you can change for the better. You're a very influential public icon, and I do hope you could influence the mass by promoting good will. And if that night was really a hoax, I don't have the right to do anything about it. Let's just leave the E-heads especially the producers of the concert to God alone.

Get well soon greeting from my Co-Brewster, DJ Ramon. Thank you so much MonRock! :D

Kuya RA and Ramon B. with Ely

Told you, God has plans! Hmm, well maybe because of what happened to me, you can now swallow what you've said before. I hope that you would renounce it. Even though you did not directly said it to me, I know it was I you're pertaining to. I did that because God told me to do so. I won't disobey my Lord, just to please you, neither the people around you. I felt bad 'cause you misunderstood me. And you made me look like a desperate girl for you and your friends. Nah! I AM DEFINITELY NOT DESPERATE, for your information. In fact, God is the only one who understands everything in the first place. I'm sorry but it's not my lost. I believe, you should've RENOUNCED IT even before I posted my feelings here. I'm not mad but you should know that judging others will not do you any good. And, I just want to ask, who are you to judge me? You're not God anyway! God bless you. =\


It's 9:59 PM and I'm still free to live for God




Friday, August 29, 2008

Revival Night

Midterms exam. Economics. Dang! Duguan ang ilong ko. :)) Waaah. It was, without question, hard for me to answer everything. There are some topics which I really don't remember if we discussed it, or am I just not listening that time. No! I always listen! Maybe I didn't attended Econ when it was discussed. :| Ok, I call that Self Argument. Haha. Tsss. I thought the Exercises will be collected. 'Di pa pala. GOOD! E 'di ko panaman tapos na tapos. :P I will not expect for good grades in Econ this Midterms, samantalang noong Prelims, 2nd to the highest ako. :|

History. Me and my group mates thought we will also be required to answer a quiz before taking the Midterms Exam, blessed much, we don't have to. Exempted for I-don't-know-the-reason. :)) The exam is kind of hard, but I did a little reading before I arrived at the campus so it helped me a lot. It focused on one topic though, and what sucks is, that topic is what I regretfully did not bothered reading. Psssh.

Lunch. I love my schedule, hihi! Because I gots to read and review more before the hardest subject. Well, I don't really consider Natural Science as the hardest subject. But I don't consider it as a so-so also. ;) This is when the BOCHOGS were born. Marvin and I isolated from our friends. We wanted to eat inside the campus, at kasi, studious ako e. =)) Haha. natawa ako sa sinabi ko. I mean, we wanted to study for NatSci during the break so we didn't come with them. Not that our friends doesn't know how to study ah! Haha. Mas masipag pa nga sila sa akin. Its just that, I have this sickness that whenever I plan to study, but I'm with my friends, I cannot concentrate much, so it suddenly ends up with talking and laughing with them. :))

Marvin: Dapat may tawagan din tayo, kasi sila Jennylyn, may tawagan na kami e.
Jeah: Osige sige. Hahaha. Labsss?
M: Labs? baduy mo naman. Honey bunch?
J: Hahaha. Wag!
M: Kapkeyk?

Then I remembered Kathleen my former classmate and Roger, my Paowderr Boy mate. Nung sila pa, ang tawagan nila, BOCHOG. :>

J: Hahahah! Hmm. Bochog?
M: Ang cute! O tara Bochog! Hahaha!

Haha. Tawanan na lang kami. We seemed like dating couples sa FEU eh. :)) Hahaha. Joke. We bought pastas from Tayuman, since we were dismissed early by our History Professor, we had more time to make some adventures. We visited the Bazaar at Pavilion. Woo. Cool. They were selling lots'a stuff there. Sadly, I don't have any bucks to buy something. So we headed to the Library. We saw some of our classmates already reviewing their notes. Haha. MC0812 rocks! Tawanan kami. Nagpustahan ba. basta dalawa lang kami. Naghanap kami ng upuan na pang dalawa lang. Ang lamig talaga dun. Brrr. Studied a bit, then, I remembered, FRIDAY pala ngayon!! I almost forgot our cell group. :)) When I checked my phone, 2 missed calls from Ate Kat. Haha. Napaisip ako, pupunta pa ba ako? E kailangan ko mag-aral. That was hard! But then I still left Marvin alone. Bye Bochog! So long and goodnight... Hahaha. =))

I met up with Ate Kat, hindi pa siya kumakain. Sinamahan ko siya kumain. Fellowship kami, since alam namin, wala ng pupunta. Back to normal, dalawa lang kami. Usap. Random Topics. Prayed. Tawanan. Pareho kami hindi pa nakakapag-aral. Bid our goodbyes to each other. 12 na. NATSCI na. *heartbeats* Well, I am proud to say na even though wala ako masyado naaral, nasagutan ko naman ng sure answers 'yung karamihan ng questions. Stock Knowledge? Haha. Joke! Surely, if you put God first, you don't have to worry about anything. Pero I did my best naman para makapag-review. Of course, we also have to do our part. :)

Weee. Nakumpleto din kami. Ayon edi naging Ateng si Erzel, and Marvin was, I dont know. :)) PE nothings. Headed home. Ang kamote ko ngayong araw na ito. Na kahit ilang beses na pinaalala ni Wiess na may Revival Night, hindi ko padin pinlano pumunta. I always say.. Bahala na. Kapag 'di tinamad.. Ang sama ko no? :| Contrary to what my mind is timidly thinking, nagpunta ako. I remembered from one of the preachings of Tatay Marvin, "Pag tinatamad kang pumunta ng Church, dun ka mas sipagin kasi may pumipigil sa'yo."

I made it on time. Though I thought I was already late. So I felt, para sa'kin 'yung service na'to. The moment I sat down with my Church Friends, haha. Nag-start bigla! :D

The first Picture is the Poster posted in different walls of Word Of Hope. :)
The second Picture is Evangelist Mikel French Know more about him, Visit!
The third Picture is Brother James Huey. The author of the song, When I think About The Lord. Want to hear praises from James Huey? Listen and Visit his MySpace page.





This one is not the original version from James Huey. Too bad, the original version is not available for Downloading. Just visit his site so you can also hear his wonderful voice that is really dedicated for the Lord. And how he plays the piano or organ so well. I think his hands are really made for creating wonderful music of praises to God. By the way, his song, if you don't know it yet, it is one of the most downloaded song way back when it was first released. :)

Mikel French is a very powerful speaker! Take it from me, I don't lie. Haha. What I mean is, he's so filled and anointed by the Holy Spirit. That you can't resist and you will never ever reject God after his preaching. He believes that one day, God will use people to take Metro Manila further for the expansion of God's kingdom. Thus, he spoke about NATION SHAKERS AND CITY TAKERS. From John 4:34-36. It was about how Jesus ministered to the people and taken and shaken the City of Jerusalem, and other cities.

When the Kingdom of God is in you, you can proudly say : I AM A MULTIPLIER, FULL OF JOY, BORN TO BIRTH CHANGE! -- That line? He repeated it for over a million times. Haha. And he makes us also repeat after him. That line was very powerful, indeed.

Some of the points from his outline that I won't ever forget:
-- There are people who doesn't know Jesus, so TALK TO THEM!
-- Don't mind who they are, 'cause you have a God who can save them!

After the preaching, Altar Call. Almost everybody stood from their seats and went to the front. The space were so limited but the Spirit of the Lord is NOT. It moved tremendously, that almost everyone that Mikel French has touched, came slaning. And as James Huey continued to sing and play, the crowd started to cry out. Yelling for God. Including me. I found myself crying and wanted to compromise with Him. :'')

The service ended at about 9:30 pm. Which is very unusual at Word Of Hope because Pastor Dave doesn't want to end services that late. But this time, he had no choice. He didn't want to frustrate the hungry worshipers, and also he didn't want to interfere God's mighty presence. I really hope all of my friends were there. :(

Now I can say, the SERVICE is TOTALLY for me. So much blessed.
One more Service tomorrow! I do hope JP could come.

It's 10:40 PM and I'm still free to live for God




Thursday, August 28, 2008

Anemia?

This will be random.
Hi? Haha. I was not able to teach my Students in San Fransisco. Miss them! :[

Tomorrow will be our MidTerm Examination for Economics, History, Natural Science and not for PE. :]

I tried to finish my requirements for Economics.
Exercises
3.1, 3.2
4.1, 4.2, 4.3, 4.4, 4.5,
5.1, 5.2, 5.3,
6.1, 6.2

Oh, mercy! Haha! Thankful pa din ako niyan, kasi 'yan lang. E madami ring hindi pinasagutan. Ang hirap. Sakit sa bangs! Tsk. Dami paaaa!

Nagpuyat ako. Actually, alam ko wala akong tulog. Nooooo! Abangan na lang ang results ng Exam. I slept late not because I'm studying, but for the following undisciplinary reasons: First, my Sister and I had a little chit-chat. Kinwento ko kung gaano ako ka blessed sa uhm, 15? :) Secondly, the Econ Requirements. I was pressured 'cause I was thinking, this will be collected tomorrow. Pressured thinking about Tomorrows Exam. PLUS! PLUS! Uhm, super tired? :|

Y!M Stat: Block Mates, honestly, nag-aral na ba kayo? MidTerms Exams tomorrow!
Sa lahat ng Block Mates ko na naka chat ko: THANKSSSSS! Nakatulong kayo. Kahit 'di ako nagka-time mag aral. :P

I already uploaded more albums at my Multiply Site. Click!
I don't want to see more filthy words from you and your profile, YVES ASHLEY! Watta freaaaak! :(

God bless meee. Hope you too! :]

It's 6:58 PM and I'm still free to live for God




Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Woman of Tears

Filipino. Waaa. Ano ba nangyayari sa akin? Hahaha! Hindi ko maalala 'yung ginawa namin. :D Anyway, forgive me. Honestly, today is September 19, 2008. Ngayon ko lang iniisip kung ano nangyari sa Fil. :))

English. YEY! Haha, we presented, at long last, the most awaited, Matang Lawin imitation. Haha, but before that super laugh trips from the other groups who presented. Mass Comm Students really cracks me up. =)) tapos ayun, nagkantahan na ng theme song na Matang Lawin.. Alex as Kuya Kim. Galing ni Joji magkungyaring unggoy e. Dun sila lahat natawa! :P Hahahahaha!

We ate lunch somewhere sa may Lerma? I found out that, that eatery was discovered by the Boys. Sizzling Pork. Yummy. :D I ate with the Boys at the Boys' table. Tapos as usual, ang girls magkakasama. Tsk tsk. One of the boys daw. Tawanan kami ng tawanan baka naman kabagin na kami, ahahaha! Great pretender [Kala mo wala akong problema e no? Christian kasi. I find JOY in everything I do.] After eating, we decided to go to St. Thompson Square, it's sort of a mini mall along Morayta. And gladly much, may cool na Ice Cream Store dun na pagmamay-ari lang naman ng aming Block mate na si Anthony. :)) Haha! Mahal kasi ng Ice Cream nila. P36 per scoop!

*Talking to the uhm, nagbabantay, or what ever they call him..*
Erika: Kuya, GF po ako ni Anthony, sabihin ko daw sa'yo para wala ng singilan..
Kuya: Hahahaha, wala naman po siyang nabanggit sakin. Di naman po nag g-girl friend si Sir Anthony.. [Sosyal! SIR ANTHONY!! :))]
Jeah: Haha, kasi ako naman po talaga yung totoong girlfriend niya. As in ASAWA na. Isang Blue Berry Cheesecake Ice cream nga! Libre na ako a! Ako ligal wayp!
All: *laughs*

Hahaha. Kulet e. Computer Lab. Discussion. MS Excel Formulas. Pfft. Paunahan na naman 'yung activity. And as expected because of our large laboratory room, malayo 'yung seat ko sa lecture area ng Lab. E kailangan namin kopyahin 'yung facts sa wide screen projector. Tsk! Bakit 'di na lang i server? :)) Demanding much. :P

Marvin [Sa computer niya, beside my computer] : Jeeaaah, o'comon make sure you write down all the facts ah! Then run here immidiately!
Jeah: Can't you see what I am already doing? JUST SHUT UP! Okay?
All: *laughs*

E paano naman kasi, sinusulat ko na nga .. sinigawan pa ako from the other side of the room na kopyahin ko daw ang nasa Large Screen! Hahahah! Nag sigawan kami. Demanding din? :)) I made it on time! 'Di nga lang 100, or 99 'yung grade ko. Dismissed.

NCAE ng GSI. We planned to see each other. On the way, along Pantranco, dami ko nakasabay na Rocesians. Boooo. Miss my Blue uniform. Really. ;( Arrived at Cirlce - C seeing Mommhie Beii, Tin, Kuya Calip, and Sir Aldrich. May nakalimutan ba ako? Hahahaah! =P

*kisses Momhie Beii and Tin*
Sir Aldrich: Ay? JP? 'Di ka kiniss oh!
Kuya Calip: Hahahaha. Sila lang kiniss!

Tawanan. Medyo tambay sandali ng nakatayo. Bisyo si Sir Aldrich e. YOSIboy. Baaaaad! Pasok sa CC. Bili si Kuya Clip ng SIMS DVD Installer. Ay asaran ng computer! :)) Tapos labas, tapos nagpaiwan si JP I thought he wanted to go with them. :| Tapos, nagsimula na ang away. Iyak na naman si Jeah. Iyak ng iyak. Kuya John saw us. Tsk. :( All Jeah wanted is to help JP change. She knows it is definitely not for her sake, but for HIS own benifit alone. But JP didn't want to listen to Jeah. Until Jeah burtsed out, shouted at an open area where many was able to hear it, and left JP there alone. Jeah thought JP will come after her, but he didn't. Sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Ng loob ko. :( I even thought of committing ........... D':

Naawa na ako sa sarili ko. Why I keep doing such things, sobrang daming sinasacrifice para sakaniya, samantalang siya, para sakaniya pala.. WALA AKONG KWENTA! :( But I still prayed and asked God for a direction. I found myself, dooooooon. Sa bahay nila. :| I went to their house and decided to wait for him there. Kahit alam kong ayaw niya. I still waited. Nanggaling pala siyang McDo. nakipagkita kila Mommhie sandali. Nang nalaman niya na andun na ako, nagmadali na siguro siya. Ayon, nangyari ulit ang dati. Tulala men! TULALA! While crying..:(( Hindi na ako masyado nag salita. I really want to say everything I wanted to, kaso, nahiya na din ako sa kaniya. And at the same time ayaw ko na magiging maayos kami kasi naawa lang siya sa iyak ko. 'Wag na lang kung ganun lang. Pero 'yun. He started talking. And I felt sincerity in his every word. He hugged me and told me he don't want to see or hear me cry again. One of the reasons why I hated him for a period of time were the moments that even though I'm already crying way too hard, he still fight over what he wanted, making me feel more down. ="| At that very moment, I forgave him and told him that I don't want to cry na din. Nakakapagod. T_T He said he was sorry. Tapos nag sorry din siya kay Lord.

I am a Woman of Tears.
I don't cry for no reason,
It's my way to defend pain and anger.

I am a Woman of Tears.
I rather choose to cry than to start fights.
A 'crybaby' you cannot brand me,
It's a sense of maturity
knowing that I can harm no one.

I am a Woman of Tears.
Ironically but true,
I can say I'm strong,
'Cause I know behind my tears is happiness,
that one day he will never let himself see me cry again..

I am a Woman of Tears.

I went home. Tired. Wasted. I prayed and thanked God for being so faithful to us. Dapat sched ko sa Dentist ko this day, and surprisingly, nagkasakit si Dra. Wilma. Making me available to see JP. Kahit na nangyari 'yun, na akala ko hinding hindi ko magagawang mag walk out ng sumisigaw in public, at least we made it through. Plano talaga ni Lord ang lahat. Still thankful. :)

Haaaay ..

It's 10:09 PM and I'm still free to live for God




Tuesday, August 26, 2008

What Matters Most

Sunday, August 24
Corban.
Our conditioning are really getting difficult. Not to mention the Pop-lockin' and Muscle busting routines. Our conditioning includes
1. Six-Steps to Crazy Legs to Alba to Forward Roll to Get-up
2. Hand-Stand Clip
3. Hand stand Freeze to Nike Air Freeze
4. Cartwheel
5. Chinese Get-Up
[ All the way]

Wooo. Beat that! Haha! We always do it across the floor, by pairs, in lines. If you finish one conditioning, next is the Pike Jumps, Hike Jumps, Worm [ The conditioning one ] and High Jumps. Right, we're like cheer dancers. Haha! Kuya Renz taught us a routine. A good and uhm, uh, hard one. Hahaha. So that's it. Ang saya ng Theater! Haha!

Service. It was the Anniversary Cantata. Sadly, no one presented aside from the P&W Team. Unlike before, we were always involved in the Cantatas especially during Anniversaries. :| Tinext ko si Kuya Andy, ahahah. =P Laugh trip. Special guest. Of course 'di na siya guest para sa'min kasi nasa Extreme Worship siya kagabi e. Evangelist Charlie Tuttle, take it from me, he's a good one! But for those who didn't able to attend yesterday, he's a guest. :)) I love his preaching, especially the way he deliver it to the congregation.

What Matters Most
Luke 6:12-19

1. Experience Spiritual Renewal, v.12
Jesus understood that Spiritual Renewal is intentional.
`"went" means to escape
`"pray" means to worship and supplicate or plead
`"prayer" means oratory talk, Jesus prayed REAL WORDS, OUT LOUD, ALL NIGHT.
Jesus needed a touch from God. Just like Him, we must intentionally SPIRITUALLY renew ourselves. >Psalm 51 --David.

2. Develop Significant Relationships, v.13
When God wants to bless you, He'll bring relationship into your life.
You cannot grow as a person if the people you bring around you doesn't also want to grow.

3. Live Simple Ministry, v.17
Jesus stood on level ground "easy for the feet"
Jesus ministered to four types of people:
* Judeons -- People of Praise
* Jerusalem -- People of Peace
* Tyries -- People form cramping, cutting hard
* Sidon -- People from catching and chasing

Ministry is bringing joy, love, care, carrying their load so it will be easy for them.
MINISTRY IS NOT WHAT WE DO, IT IS WHAT WE ARE!
Go to the people who needed Jesus the most and just share His love. SIMPLE, right?

4. Embrace Supernatural Expectation, v.18-19
When Jesus is present, the Supernatural is not silent!
A. Seek the Holy Spirit activity in your life [Ephesians 5:18 ; Acts 2:4]
B. Attain the Knowledge of God [Proverbs 2:1-5 ; Colossians 1:10 ; Romans 11:33 ; 2Corinthians 2:14]
C. Submit to Spiritual Authority [1 Corinthians 12:28]
D. Minister through the Authority of Christ [Luke 9:1 ; Romans 13:1 ; Titus 2:15]

Powerful. After the Service we, Corban Committee and Staffs went to TriNoma, business matters. xD Hahaha. I mean, we had a meeting. Akala ko nga e 'di na magmi-meet kasi late na natapos 'yung service. Haha. Sipag eh. :))

Hintayan sa TriNo.
Kuya Renz: Jeah ah! B-GIRL ka!
Jeah: [Thinking that he means Bad Girl] Hala! bakit?
Kuya Renz: Basta ipagpatuloy mo lang.
Jeah: WAAAAA! bakit nga ano ba 'yun? Paano mo nasabi?
Kuya Renz: Ang lakas na kasi ng muscles mo eh. Haha.
Jeah: [confused] Hala ano?
Kuya Renz: Basta, good for you. Keep it up. 'Yung ibang babae na nagbe-breakdance 'di pa kasing lakas mo..

SO OKAY! What he meant by B-GIRL is BREAK DANCER GIRL! Hahaha. I was really confused, I thought I have done something wrong. Something that might have offended him or sort of. Hahaha. Shame on me. But then when I started to know what he was saying, I considered it as a compliment. Weee. I'm a B-Girl! Overwhelming! Tapos kung ano ano na napagusapan namin about Break dancing. :D

Meeting. Big Clover Chips, Big CHIPSSSS! Haha, uh, yay? E kasi bawal kami sa chips. -_- Law Abider kami ni Wiess. ;)) Laugh trip talaga. Take note, we're with the Corban Kuyas and Ates, haha. But they're so lakas trip. Pasimuno? Kuya Mervin. Hahahahah! ASTIG! He's a YA leader, mehn! :)) Ang kulit nila.



Monday, August 25
No classes. I just spent my time finishing our PowerPoint presentation for our Report in History. Sayang 'di ako nakapunta sa Team Building sa Church. I was invited pa naman na mag facilitate. Tsk. Oooh, hates Computer-related school works. :(

Sige she-share ko na talaga sainiyo 'to.
My sister keeps on suggesting that I should tell this to Pastor Marvin 'cause this pathetic "Yves Ashley" keeps on using the words.. "Love Si Lord" that was originated from Youth Alive. Grabe, minumura niya si Janz. Ina-add niya mga YA People. Tapos sasabihin niya nag aatend siya ng YA. Hello, ugali ba 'yan ng isang Christian? :|

Oh I just want to know who he is and make him aware that he's accountable for using God's name in vain! Prayers!! --
This is what his profile looks like
Read his comments! ~x(

So tell me, if you were me, what would you feel? *pauses and pretends that you answer my question* Aww, thanks, that's so sweet of you! Hahahahaha!

Nakachat ko si JP from 2:00 in the afternoon until 6:00 in the evening. Ewan ko, wala ba silang pasok? I can't recall. E kasi nagtataka ako galing siya nito sa Hospital e. Hmm. Labo. :)) As I was saying, naka-chat ko siya. From 2:00 - 5:30 something, guess what we've talked about? Umiyak lang naman ako kasi, sobrang binabara niya ako. ="( Kahit tungkol na kay God, may mga times na hindi niya talaga rereplyan hanggat hindi ako mag ba-buzz or mangungulit. Yes, something's wrong with him, as usual, 'yun parin, malayo parin siya kay God. I don't know why nung nakaraan lang sinabi niya sa'kin na na realize niyang sobrang sinasaktan na niya si Lord, tapos eto na naman ako, I still found myself crying because of the same reason. :( Barado ako. Kahit ano sabihin. Ang reply niya kundi tuldok --> ........................... Ganito. --> \/\/!! Yes you read it right, WHATEVER 'yan. May mga replies din siya na Ows? kelan pa? at mga Weh? Di nga? Basta. I was really sad. I even told him I'll go to their house. Sabi niya aalis siya. Basta ayaw niya ako makita. Sino ba namang 'di masasaktan nun? Actually kung natapos ko lang 'yung presentation na ginagwa ko bandang 5, pupunta talaga ako. Maybe also God did not permitted me to go, kasi 'di ko natapos. Atska, bandang 5:30, binawi na niya lahat ng sinabi niya. Haha. Kulet. Sabi sainiyo akala niyo ganun siya kasama, actually hanggang salita lang siya e. Pero masakit ah. In fairness to him, he's really sincere in every word that he uttered. He even told me na hihintayin niya ako kapag pupunta nga ako. Thank God, naayos din. :)

Pero kahit na. Hindi pa din ako titigil! Sabi ni Lord sa akin PRESS ON! Mangungulit ako. Sabi sa isang preaching, matagal na e. "COMPEL THEM TO GO TO CHURCH!" When we say COMPEL, lahat gawin mo! Kaht kaladkarin mo na sila! Pagdating doon, si God na ang bahala! :)



Tuesday, August 26
Haay. I was late for Economics. Tsk! Ano ba nangyayari sa'kin? I'm missing my subjects tapos Midterms na! ;\ Anyway, on the lighter note, napa copy ko 'yung outline ng report namin. Weee! History. Reporting. We weren't able to set a schedule for a projector. Lunch.

Professor Blas was absent in our Natural Science class. Unfortunately, haha we had a substitute Professor. Mr. Zapanta. Kulet ng section namin, niloloko siya kaagad. Yee, I love Earth Science. But I loathe Seat works! =)) Break. We went to FEU Food court. Waha. Suddenly, Erika, Rizza and Erzel panicked. I asked why. Namann, Girls will always be girls. Hahaha! Nasa Food court pala ang mga Basketball Players ng FEU sa UAAP. Of course thay were the stars there. Talagang nagtakbuhan sila Rizza doon just to catch a glimpse of the players they were fancying on. Hahaha! Nakilala ko din sila. Honestly, wala naman akong kilala sa kanila. I never been fond of Collegiate Basketball. Syempre things should already be changing now that I am a college student already. I saw CAWALING! Siya pinaka magaling. Next best to Baracael ['Yung nabaril] na malamang nag papagaling pa. 15 ang Jersey No. niya e. Gwapo. =)) OK. I'll shut up now. Hahahaah!

Nescafe frizz. Marvin and I shared. Lamig din kasi kaya ayaw namin pareho ng malaking cup. The girls [excluding me, 'cause I'm not a girl. JOOOOKE!] went to the Computer Shop with Russel. So naiwan ako with the rest of the boys, Yuji and Marvin. Laugh trips. Kulet e. :)) And then, naisipan naman mag compare ng answers sa long take home quizzes namin sa Economics. Booo to Long Quizzes! Kahit take home pa 'yan o hindi! :P

PE. Refresh ulit ng Cheers. Ngek. :)) Introduction to Aerobics. Dismissed.

Home. I was chatting with my Mom, e paalis nadin daw si Mommy sa house niya kasi pupunta pa siya sa Prayer Meeting sa Church nila doon, so I decided na matulog na kaagad after ni Mommy umalis. Unexpectedly, at around 7pm, JP went online. Ok naman kami. He tried to ask help from me para sa kanilang Midterms, sort of like a Term Paper, about the Oil Price Hike. E kaso, he didn't know kung ano pa ang gagawin. Hindi pa daw niya natatanong kila Tin. I really need to go kasi umalis na din ang Mom ko, so hindi ko siya natulungan. Nagalit pa. E gusto ko naman nun tumulong. :( Natulog ako mga 8pm.

I accidentally woke up 10pm ata, by JP's text message saying "Thanks ha. Buti nalang si besPren natulungan ako, kung hndi wala na." Edi okay. 'Yun naman pala e. I reckoned he finished his Midterms na. Tapos at around 11:30pm, nagising ulit ako ng text niya. "Di parin tapos" edi nag online naman si Jeah para kay JP. -- 11:47pm. Nagulat naman ang loko! :)))

I helped him. Kasi naman parang bata. Joke! ;P I told him about Carlo. A YA attendee, uhm? Patay na patay ata sakin. [Ohaaa.. Feeler? =))] Ewan ko. Bakit ganun mga comments niya e.

* carl angelo * Posted 08/26/2008 10:40 am
-- JEAH is my CRUSH!
* carl angelo * Posted 08/26/2008 10:35 am
seryoso ako mahal ko!
--jeah my crush!nagkaCRUSH lang ako sayo nagkaCRUSH na din sila sayo...dis world is unfair!hehe
--hi my CRUSH!
--JEAH u are my CRUSH!!!!!!!!!
--u r so cute crush na kita.......hehe
--hi ms.can i have ur number?

Ayan. I even don't know kung nangt-trip lang. Pero kasi. Err. Anyway, ayon. Kung ano ano napag usapan namin. Anything under the sun. :D Photo Share. Lahat ng nilagay kong pictures, sinasabi niya kung saan nangyari 'yun. Wala lang nag remenisce kami. Aww.

This is our very first Photo Mosaic.
Eto yung sobrang namiss namin. Buong Sunday kami magkasama.
Church - After Church. House niya. House ko. Wow! :')

Hahaha! 1:39 am kami natapos. Hahahaha!
Lord, galing MO kahit kailan! :''>

It's 9:27 PM and I'm still free to live for God




Saturday, August 23, 2008

Made to Worship

WARNING: LONG POST! :]


Click to Play >> Made To Worship - Chris Tomlin
[I got this from Music Dumper. Pangit kasi 'yung front image ng player nila. Ayan pinalitan ko. I never thought na maiiba ko. Haha. Hinulaan ko lang kung pa'no. xD]

Yes, I made it to my Filipino Class on time. Horay! Haha. ;) But we did nothing, actually, I forgot. V_v *refreshing my mind* In English, we all thought that Professor Alimuin won't come again. We always do this: When it's already past ten minutes and still no sign of our Professor, someone would look over the time and wait until it reaches 15 minutes, so we can obtain our freedom from late Professors. Haha!

Jerome: OKAY! LAAAAAAST 2 minutes! [See? Parang Basketball lang! :))]

Unfortunately, she arrived. :| :P Haha infairness to her, she's already being consistent in reagards of her attendance in our class. Horrrah! Grouping. Choose your own. Of course, the boys would always get me as their group mate. Kaso, oo dumami kami. Haha. Puro Boys. So nag BlackVSWhite kami. We were divided into two musculine groups. :)) Haha. Our group consisted of Alex, Jerome, Anthony, Joji, DJ & me! We were assigned to present a short skit or show that would advertise the different tourist spots here in the Philippines. And after minutes of brainstorming, at syempre 'di mawawala ang kalokohan, we came up with an idea of imitating Kuya Kim's show Matang Lawin. Hahahaha. And Alex, without hesitation volunteered to be Kuya Kim. Anthony, Jerome and Joji, also without resisting and complaints, volunteered to be the lawin, monkey and the dinasour? Hahahaha! So DJ and I would act as Igorots from Banawe Rice Terraces, 'cause we chose it to be our featured tourist spot. We also need to insert an imitation of any commercial in our skit, and after minutes of laugh trips, we decided to use the Fita Advertisement. :] After the hilarious presentation of two groups, we were moved to present next meeting. Lack of time.

Lunch at Foodcourt. All of the people who missed our last meeting's Filipino quiz were scheduled to take a special quiz at exactly 11am. So Erika and Rizza, including me hurried to SB102. Naabutan namin si Prof. David lecturing, with an observer from OSACS. So she said we have to take it at 1:30. Hay, dismissal ko na 'yun e! :)) So we still had 1 hour more from our free time. We went to Mini Stop Recto and ordered our cheap but yummy 15 Peso Ice Cream. At dun na naimbento ang kapamilyahan namin.

Atchie -- Erika
Kuya -- Russel
Ditse -- Jeah
Shoti -- Yuji
Shobe -- Rizza

We forgot to name Erzel 'cause she's not attending classes because of her chicken pox [Pray for her, would you?] and Marvin was not with us. Friends' conflict reasons. :| Tambay, tawanan. As usual, I shared again about the word of the Lord. I can see their hunger and interest. Pero pagdating sa kapag iniinvite ko na, puro laging may excuse. Bakit kaya? :(

Computer. I texted Kuya Clip kasi alam ko magpapatulong siya e. Mag eexam siya. So I left SB513, wala pa naman si Sir. He replied using Ate Diane's phone. Andun na sila sa EAC Building. Sa may Admissions, haha. Tinakas ko sila kasi they were having a hard time trying to enter the campus. Ate Diane didn't brought her ID but she wanted to come with Kuya Calip inside. I led them through FEU and EAC's Food court in which I know, no one could stop us from entering the campus. 'Di na niya kailangan mag pakita ng ID and Visitor's pass. :D Woooo! Thanked God, kasi akala ko masisita kami, but no one saw us. Haha. Clever meee ^^. Anyway, Ate Diane was quite hot tempered that time. :\ Thus, making me too silent and keeping me from asking them questions that I really really need to ask. So hinintay ko na lang na si Kuya Calip magsalita. E badtrip din ata. Nag-away ata sila or ewan, baka may problem. I did not bother asking them. I left them at Nursing Building, 2nd floor. Dun 'yung testing room. Si Ate Diane, super sungit. Nakakatakot. :| OK, so I went back to SB513. I was too exhausted haha. 5th floor kaya 'yun mehn! I asked JP to straightly go to FEU para mag-kita kami. I almost forgot that I'll be having my quiz after dismissal so tinanung ko siya kung ayos lang sakaniya na mag hintay. Yey, he seems kind sa text niya. "Ok lang po, 'wag mo madaliin ah!" Ang naabutan ko sa Computer, NOSEBLEED na Seatwork. Atleast I only had 3 mistakes. Pero super bloodshed talaga. Haha. Dismissed. Nagpa copy ako ng Report namin sa History at pinamigay ko sa group mates ko. I was so pressured because JP's already waiting at the Admissions Building for almost 1hour. I took my exam at SB301, HRM Class ni Prof. David! And hurriedly went off to meet him. YAY. We're great great great. :)) We stayed there and talk for a couple of minutes. Kinwento ko 'yung ay nako. :( Haay. Basta. BADTRIP e. kala mo kung sino. Waaa! And then I was hunger. OO hunger ako. HUNGER! :)) Niyaya ko siya sa Foudcourt. Again, tinakas ko siya. Bawal po 'yung ginawa ko para kay Ate D and kay JP. 'Wag niyo ako gagayahin. Kaniya kaniyang trip. Hahahaha! I ordered a Hotdog Sandwhich [his faaave] from the TJ Hotdog's stall and a Cerialicious cup. Haha. Good thing Marvin and Alex were there! Ay super laugh trip. Nakitawa naman si JP. Haha. Kulet kasi ni Marvin.

Marvin: Wala na akong friends. [He's talking about the conflicts occuring in our Block] Haaay. Buti na lang andito si Jeah.
Jeah: Uh, excuse me..who you?
*laughs*
And yes, he told the story about his dream to be "the crush ng bayan" =)) JP really laughed at him and Alex. KULIT! Then we went off. Extreme Worship e.

I told him na daan muna kami ng SM North. Of course, he'd like to. [Tuma-timing talaga ako na i-invite siya sa YA] SBC, The Block. Brownie Javakula. Waha. After we sat down, we saw Ate Alana. [Is her name spelled with an H? As in A-L-A-N-A-H? Haha!] she'll be waiting for Kuya Vino once again. Once again? Haha, kasi dati Saturday din before mag YA, kumain kami ni JP sa Whamm! Burgers sa The Block din, at ayun bigla din silang dumating. Double date? :)))))) Niyaya ko siya sa Extreme Worship but he keeps on saying NO. He's rejecting God, not mee, pero I still did not stop inviting him. Ok, this is when it all started. Actually, kanina pa ata badtrip sa'kin. Not until..

JP:[To Ate Alana] Wala pa si Kuya Vino?
Jeah: Bakit? nakikita mo na ba? Hahaha!

THAT was a big joke. =\ Pero nabadtrip siya. Alam ko hindi 'yun yung pinag awayan namin. Pero, Ate Diane and Kuya Calip saw us na, they went off, Kuya Vino arrived then umalis na din sila ni Ate Alana, pero umiiyak padin ako. We moved to a comfortable seat. We planned to talk about "what's going on with us na" grabe yung situation na 'yun. Sobrang grabe. You may think that my story is way beyond the truth pero totoo lahat 'to. Kulang pa nga e. 'Cause you were not there. Sobrang iyak ako. Take note, sa SBC. And I was silently crying. Tulala. Para akong baliw. I hate to say that line pero ganiyan na itusra ko nun. That's the most appropriate description for me that moment. Assuming nasa Mental Hospital kami, bagay na bagay na ako pumunta dun because of my look. Sobrang depressed na ako. And I can't do anything but cry. [While PRAYING] I was too afraid to let go of him na walang nangyayari sakaniyang mabuti. Ilang beses na sinabi ni God sa akin na babalik din siya sa dati, pero the way he treated me that moment was the other way around. I really felt thet the world is over me. That I'm experiencing emotional break down. Na kahit ilang beses niya punasan 'yung luha ko, it keeps on flowing like a river. Dun ko naisip, grabe ang pagmamahal ni Lord na napasa sa akin. Grabe. :"( After all that he said and I pointed, puro arguments 'yun syempre. He started to talk softly. Promising that he won't break his promise.

Tutuparin ko pa rin pangarap natin, maniwala ka. Lahat 'yun! Ako parin at ikaw sa dulo.. Promise.. Mahal na mahal kita at 'wag mong iisiping iiwanan kita.. Mahal.. Oo nasaktan pa kasi kita ngayon pero 'wag kang susuko.. Hindi kita kayang iwanan.. Maniwala ka.. Lahat ng sinasabi ko sa'yong masasakit.. hanggang sabi lang ;yun 'di ko naman kaya gawin e.. Mahal.. magtiwala ka.. Kay God.. 'Di ko kaya gawin 'yun.. Promise Mahal.. Promise.. Yan lang ang panghahawakan mo.. Mahal na mahal kita.....

So on.. so forth.. tears fell down his face..
And the only words that came from my mouth was.. Naniniwala ako..

ENOUGH. 'Yun na 'yun. It is definitely hard for me to rant all that had happened here. 'Di niyo mafe-feel 'yung intensity ng storya! Hahaha! He went home, I went to WoH. The Program already started a few minutes ago. Medyo late ako pero hindi sobra. The Auditorium was full packed! From the Balcony to the overflows. Actually ako nakauspo sa sahig. Yea, I love the floor e. Ptr. Jordan was there! Ang talented niya. His band called NaCis played. Medyo Metal Band pero Christian. Next is GUESS WHO? Yesss, the YA BAND!! Nagulat ako, No Current Band ang pangalan nila. Kalakasan na naman ng trip siguro 'yun. Kasi, nakwento sa akin "No current name" pa daw sila dati, so I concluded it was derived from thet phrase. ;D Ang gwapo ni Kuya PJ. Plus, Kuya Dane, and and PLUS PLUS [&& ++ :))] Kuya JonJon! RAWR! Kaineeess! Hahaha. All were standing ang jumping in praises for the Lord. Unlike the band of Ptr. Jordan, parang nag present lang e. Haha. Pero I appreciated it naman. I AM FREE TO LIVE FOR YOU, I AM FREE!! WoH Malabon -- HCA Revolution ; God of Wonders! -- Offering -- A band from other church and the vocalist was a fromer Rocesian! Nakalimutan ko lang 'yung name. Sabi na e, Christian siya. Way older siya sa akin. :] Then Pastor Dave introduced the speaker. Evangelist Charlie Tuttle, the lead pastor of Family Worship Center from Dallas, Texas USA. Woah! He's a very powerful speaker. He didn't preached anything paradoxial to 'Worship'. He preached about the PROBLEMS of life when no one understands us and why God allows us to be in that situation. Also known as our "SUMMITS in Life" Huuuu. Too bad I lost my outline. I didn't wrote it in my Devotion Notebook, I was too careless. :| But it was great, it was really for me. For my situation. 'Di ko man lang ma-share sainyo. :( Any way, the Spirit of God was so strong and so moving na hindi na nasunod 'yung line up ng mga bands. Haha, tinawag ulit ang YA band, and Pastor Marvin. Pastor Dave even mentioned that he is really thankful to God for Tatay Marvs. Yess, naman favorite ba? Joke! Haha, and until the end of the service, sila na 'yung tumugtog and the YA NOVA. Oha. Ang mga youth nga naman. ;] Weee. Super blessed. Si Kuya Jericho from YA NOVA, kamukha ni Eduardo. Na-miss ko tuloy ng sobra. :| Super over flowing ang Spirit. To the max. I really am so sorry na wala man lang ako nadala. I know I'm accountable sa mga dapat na naiinvite ko na this time. O Lord.., forgive me. :(

The Hungry Crowd
During Offering
Evangelist Charlie Tuttle
Everybody? JUMP AROUND!
Super blessed! :)

Uhh. Uhm, 'yun! I was filled and empowered again. Mga 9:30 na natapos. Haha. Roces-- Ang dami namin. Corban. SAYA! At ayun nakikain kami nila Domar sa Worker's Banquet. Haha, Bakit ba? E we were invited by Pastora Suzie e. Hahahaha! Worker din naman kami ah. :P Napa-GM tuloy ako. ;)

Home. Tireeed. But satisfied, of course. Grabe na mga mehn! Hope you were all there to experience it!Last midnight, I was chatting with my Mom when Kuya John BUZZED me. ;p Nagpatulong sa Persuasive Essay niya about the "An Inconvenient Truth". Mapuan 'yan ah. Haha. Yup. Madaling araw na ata 'yun. I made 3 paragraphs for his Homework. :)) At he photo shared some of his latest drawings. Nga pala, he's taking up Multimedia Arts sa Mapua Institute of Technology. Here are some: Haha! Out of 8, these were my favorites..

Pony Inspired Baby

Actually, most of them are nude drawings. And hey, I appreciated Kuya John for sharing those to me. Hahahaha!

EDIT: I am currently chatting with babyprince!

Jaypee™ (8/23/2008 11:13:55 PM):
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Jeah (8/23/2008 11:14:38 PM): ILOVEYOU SUPERMAN!
Jaypee™ (8/23/2008 11:14:48 PM):
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Jeah (8/23/2008 11:15:11 PM): Hndi naman
Jaypee™ (8/23/2008 11:15:30 PM): sana nga
Jeah (8/23/2008 11:16:20 PM): Gagaling ka din.
Jaypee™ (8/23/2008 11:17:08 PM): sabi ni bespren dapat daw maaga matulog kasi 10-12 daw nagwowork ung mga cells
Jeah (8/23/2008 11:18:06 PM): Ah oo
Jaypee™ (8/23/2008 11:19:42 PM): dapat maaga tau matulog
Jeah (8/23/2008 11:20:37 PM): O isge na bye na
Jeah (8/23/2008 11:20:41 PM):
Sumakit mata mo? :P
God bless!

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Jeah || Jahaziel Ann
1991, 16th of October
A man trapped in a woman's body. Caffeine addict. Full time Student. Full time Minister.
FEUTamaraw Freshman. AB Mass Communication
An Athlete of God.
iDance. iPerform. iMinister. iServe. iShare. iLove. iLive.

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